Why is it so hard to do make time and energy for evolvement? In the morning the world lies at your feet. Then after working, cooking and all the necessary must-does the energy is almost completely gone and has been replaced with frustration. Not that I dislike what I do. If I would spend my days not having to leave home I would probably be depressed sooner or later. I like taking care of my family and my home. I just want more time to reflect, learn new things, read, wright paint. Recently I joined an online course at Stockholm University on distance so I could study and work at the same time. Because it was the last days to sign in when I choose amongst the courses I was stressed and just picked one that seemed interesting, computer and system science course. I did not know what I was in for. But now I try to study hard to make it through the ten weeks that it takes. Today I feel happy that I have passed the two first modules and tonight I will hand in my third. Scary.