Why is it so hard to do make time and energy for evolvement? In the morning the world lies at your feet. Then after working, cooking and all the necessary must-does the energy is almost completely gone and has been replaced with frustration. Not that I dislike what I do. If I would spend my days not having to leave home I would probably be depressed sooner or later. I like taking care of my family and my home. I just want more time to reflect, learn new things, read, wright paint. Recently I joined an online course at Stockholm University on distance so I could study and work at the same time. Because it was the last days to sign in when I choose amongst the courses I was stressed and just picked one that seemed interesting, computer and system science course. I did not know what I was in for. But now I try to study hard to make it through the ten weeks that it takes. Today I feel happy that I have passed the two first modules and tonight I will hand in my third. Scary.

Sometimes It´s so nice to just be lazy, especially when the laundrybasket is full and dishes are piling up in the sink. Waking up and refusing to get out of bed is lovely. After eating breakfast one might think that it´s time to role up your sleeves and get bussy. Not me, not today. I went back to bed to watch a movie, read and reflect. A sunday well spent.

The fall is slowly changing into winter outside. Any day it might start snowing and the media reports of a possibly coming “wolf winter”. I would like a mild winter for ones, and now it might get worse than it has been the last years. It would really be great to feel certain to get to work in the morning and succesfully get home as well. Maybe you now think that I live on the countryside. I live in a suburb to Stockholm and in good conditions it takes me about twenty minutes to get to work, by car, using the highway. Now that that is said I will redirect my thoughts to positive things. One thing that hit me is that it is almost impossible to look good when it gets really cold. Some people try but have to face the consequense of freezing. Most of us are covered in several layers of clothes,thick jackets robust boots, hats and cloves. Sometimes one can´t tell one from the other in the darkness that arrives very early in the day and also hides us. This can be a good thing. No preassure to look great at all. Instead we can enjoy the beauty of a world covered in snow and glittering frost. How amazing it is to see the light of a full moon reflected in the snow. Now I kind of look forward to winter, a little.